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| so a lot has been going on in my life and a lot of changes are being made and have been made in the last 40 some days. A lot of you will be happy to know that all of the guys from diffrent states I don't talk to anymore. I have offically, as of this morning, disowned one of my very best friends. Some shisty shit happened that should never haveo0ccured and I do not even count this person as someone I know anymore.
Right now I'm going through a lot of pain (physical, mental, an emotional) and I won't be online or even trying to contact any of my freinds. A lot of terrible things have happened and I just need to be alone right now and that's the end of that. I'm not mad at any of you and Im not doing anything I shouldn't be but I just need to be in my solitude. I should be ok in a few days. | | |
| wow, I just had the best week of my life. I can't really tell you all why but let's just say I went camping and I never wanted to come home. I had so much fun and it felt like I finally belonged somewhere. This really isn't going to make much sense to any of you except maybe Becky, Alex and Derek but that's ok. You don't need to understand. All you need to know is that from my last post I have done a complete turn around. | | |
| mmm you gotta love spring cleaning! For some odd reason cleaning the front room, washing the walls etc makes me feel really good. Other than the muscle pain in my shoulders and arms from scrubbing?!
I also feel a lot better now that I have a lot of my homework done.
304 more words to go for my Melvin paper, and I still have to go over half of my friggin note cards. Why does he have to make everything so complicated?!
Preformance with the Akron U flute choir then I'm done!! yay! I loved playing with them but i HATE having to take a class on sunday nights!
Those of you that know about Shaun, he's still not speaking to me and each day taht goes by my heart keeps breaking. It's wierd because I feel nothing. For you that know my "normal self" being all... yeah... I feel nothing. I fell down the stairs out of the 200's yesterday and I felt no pain. when I landed my left leg was behind me with my foot behind my head, and I still felt nothing. Normally that would be a very painful position?
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| wow, it's been a long time since my last update...
Well as for my Mono, I still have it but I am feeling a heck of a lot better than I was. I'm not as tired, but I still get migranes, sick to my tum-tum, etc. I Hope to be fully recoverd by the end of next week. A HUGE thanks to all of you for caring!!! *huggles* 
Family news, my brother finally got a job. not just any job... a job at................(wait for it).......................(wait ofr it).................. GEAUGA LAKE!!! I'm so excited for him, you guys have no idea!!!! My dad also finally got another job.... finaly!
SO there are 19 days left of school as of right now. Tomorrow, 2- 4 day weeks and 2- 5 days weeks!! WOOO HOOOO!
Drivers ed ios over and i'm kind of sad. No more messing with Todd, brook, Kristen, and Shane for 3 hours every night  I'm going to miss my time with them and Mrs. Eleo!! she was sooooo much fun!! | | |
| ok so I keep having this dream that EVERY girl has at some point in their life where you're getting married and you see the BEAUTIFUL dress and all of your family and friends. But the only problem with the dream is that you can't see who you are marrying or if you do you can't remember it the very next morning when you wake up. Well I had this dream where it was a week before my wedding and Iwas just having fun with my fiancee. I could see everything about him and I know his name too! I was like HOLY WHAT!?! What is this supposed to mean?! His name is nicholas Tredeptri (spelling I have no clue but it's said (treh-dep-tree)) He's probably about 6'-6'2", around 190-200 lbs, VERY MUSCULAR, he was very tan from being outdoors kind of like that reddish tan. He has hazle/dark green eyes, and a smile that just makes me melt. He was wearing a tight black t-shirt to show off his muscles and abs which are VERY nice, looseblue jeans, sandles, and an old yellow hat that is dark yellow/ brown from age. We were just sitting outside of my house at the end of the driveway in the sun being in love and totaly excited for our wedding in a week. Is this supposed to mean anything!? | | |
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